this is a vent. not a cry for sympathy (though it is a cry for answers/solutions, if anyone has them).
i'm also sorry for the foot picture (feet are nasty), but underneath that pink bandage is a mutilated toe and running related injury.
things aren't getting better. in fact, they're getting worse. and while i had a sunny disposition about it all on vacation, when i got home and got back into reality i quickly got salty, upset and frustrated.
what do i have to do to be able to run without injury? without assaulting my poor toe? without having to limp walk to the end of a race? how many more pairs of shoes do i have to buy? or how many assessments at physical therapy will this take? is there even an explanation for whats going on and even more importantly, a course of action to heal and prevent this from happening again?
injuries are frustrating no matter when they hit. this injury is even more frustrating because it happened at the peak of my performance. i'm faster than i've ever been and was primed to reach my sub two-hour goal. and while i totally understand that if we PR'd every race there would be no challenge, i still wanted my return to half marathons to be awesome, not frustrating and awful like they have been.
i am trying to look on the bright side of having a few months to physically and mentally recover/heal/prep before my next big race, but right now everything feels like an unknown road ahead of me, rather than a clear cut path to running pain free and happy again.