Thursday, October 31, 2013

a little epiphany

its 5 in the morning and i can't sleep, so what better time to reflect on a little epiphany i had this week?

i have been in a pretty deep rut since the detroit women's half and first injury onset. the rut only got deeper after the key west half marathon when the injury didn't get better and neither did my race performance. ever since then i've been in what i'm calling a "health depression." i've gained a little weight, my nutrition has gone a little to the careless side and i lack motivation to do anything about it. it's like i'm literally rejecting everything else i could do to stay active and cross train before i'm able to run again. as if boycotting working out and eating well is somehow going to help the situation (and that makes just about as much sense to me as me being awake at 5am does). 

so i whined about being in a rut to my friend susan and then again to my boyfriend as i was dragging my feet before my strength training session. and then something happened.

me: i'm in a rut. i'm so unmotivated and i just don't want to do anything blah blah blah.

boyfriend: well you're not going to get out of a rut by doing nothing. you have to actually pull yourself out.

me: *light bulb goes on* you know that actually makes a lot of sense. why didn't i think of that? you actually have to do something about it.

boyfriend: are you being sarcastic?

i really wasn't being sarcastic. his answer was so simple and it had never occured to me before. in truth, i was waiting for some instant *snap* to happen in my head where all of a sudden i would be motivated again. wouldn't instant motivation be awesome? but it doesn't work like that. and i should know this from all the times i've wished to instantly lose weight, or wished to instantly have some talent or to instantly be able to avoid the second mini candy bar. only i can get myself to do the things i must do. there is no switch i can flick or a button i can push. the only way out of a rut is for me to drag myself out.

so i put on my workout clothes and i went to my strength session. 

and you know what? it was hard. it sucked. but i felt better. i felt almost a sense of relief that i could actually do something positive towards getting myself out of a funky rut. 

as with most things that need to be earned, the first step is always the hardest, but its the only way to get where i want to be.


how do you pull yourself out of a rut? do you wait until a magic switch makes everything better? or do you do something about it and drag yourself out?


11 comments:

  1. Yeah, I pretty much always have to work HARD to get myself out of a rut. What I've learned is that you have to take it one day at a time. It could be that this morning is GREAT and I feel motivated and awesome, and then tomorrow I have to do the same thing all over again. Oh well. Small victories are still victories! I'm glad you were able to pull yourself out!

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    1. Sounds just like running :) One day can be awesome and the next a disaster. Maybe I need a lesson more in "this is how life is?" Because I don't think these trends will ever change!

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  2. I am having a really hard time pulling myself out of the rut I am in....

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    1. What can we do to motivate each other or pull ourselves out? I'm game to any idea :)

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  3. How do I pull myself out of a rut? Verrrryyy slowwwly
    But I get there! Baby steps. Usually it's doing something small until my brain realizes that I actually do enjoy doing that activity and acts like it wants to again.

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    1. I like the baby step principle. Usually I try and force myself to do something big and grand and that never works. I need to start breaking it down smaller and build up. Love your idea :)

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  4. I'm glad you pushed yourself :) one workout at a time!

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    1. You are totally right. One workout, one step... one everything at a time!

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  5. Great job!! Glad you were able to get back on track. It's hard to pull yourself out of a rut, I definitely agree!

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  6. It's so hard to get motivated to workout while injured so kudos to you for getting to the gym for some strength training!

    I'll admit, I'm guilty of not working out when injured. Instead of cross training, I usually prefer my couch and a bag of gummi bears ;)

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