Thursday, September 12, 2013

life lately

i've been feeling very overwhelmed and underwhelmed lately. it may sound wonky, but if you think it through, i think you can feel both of those feelings at the same time. i can only explain it as feeling so overwhelmed that you just don't care enough to do anything about it above and beyond what you need to do to get by. therefore, i am underwhelmed. has anyone else felt this way?

there's a lot going on in my world and in my head and everything seems to happen so fast, as life does. most of what's going on involves a lot of change, all of which i believe is for the better, but that doesn't make it any less scary. change is very scary for me. i feel very comfortable with safe, risk averse decisions. but as i seem to be learning, making the safe, comfortable decision doesn't always get you where you want to be, or help you grow and develop into the person you want to be. 

i will share more as i can, i'm sorry for being so secretive here, but i have to decide if i'm willing to take a risk on something that is not safe and comfortable so that i can have a chance at being happier with where i am in life. 

the business quarter is ending, which means work is very busy. my first half marathon back in action is less than two weeks away and i've been so stressed out trying to get my workouts in. with my schedule being so crazy, i haven't been to strength training in weeks. and now i've found myself in a blister situation that i'm desperately trying to remedy before race day. are we having fun yet? :)

oh and not to mention, its football season! the enjoyment i get from college football is slightly overshadowed by how exhausted i am already going to the games each weekend. and i'm only two home games in! thank goodness for pumpkin spice lattes to keep me going...

i guess what i'm trying to show through all of this is that overwhelmed and underwhelmed is exactly how i feel. and because of that a lot of my passion projects, like blogging and writing and cooking, have taken a sad little side role in life. 

but hey, it happens. the ebbs and flows of life as we know it. i'm just focused on moving forward because thats all you need to do to get through!


11 comments:

  1. I hope things calm down (or speed up) for you. I have felt like that before. Chin up!

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  2. Amy @ Long Drive JourneySeptember 13, 2013 at 9:21 AM

    I've totally felt that before. It's a a weird, limbo kind of feeling. Love college football, but the thought of going to every home game makes me tired, too. Wishing you the courage and grace to do what you think is right in your situation!

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  3. I hope things even out for you soon! I've had this crazy anxious feeling for the past week and It's been driving me crazy! Must be in the air right now!

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  4. I'm in the same boat - totally understand the overwhelmed and underwhelmed combo. I'm actually in dire need of change. I keep searching for it, but it's not coming. Hopefully, we can both just keep moving forward, seeking out what we need, and it will come.

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  5. Girl, I 100% understand what you mean. Sometimes its insanely tough being patience for that sign or signal that something is coming. It took me almost two years to find (what I think) is going to help me a bit. It seemed like forever but I have to have faith its all worth it!

    I hope you'll find what you're looking for soon :)

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  6. It might be! Last Friday was Friday the 13th - think that was part of it?? ;)

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  7. LIMBO. Nothing more I hate than limbo. Seriously. Terrible stuff.

    College football is a blessing and a curse all at the same time. Emotionally, mentally and physically exhausted but so fun you can't have it any other way!! Who's your team??

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  8. I'm dying to go to a SEC football game. If I make it down sometime, can we go to an LSU game together?!

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  9. Amy @ Long Drive JourneySeptember 17, 2013 at 8:57 AM

    A resounding yes to this question.


    Tiger Stadium is apparently the loudest college football stadium in the country. So I was told. It's just so amazing and writing this makes me miss home.

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  10. YAY! Oh man. I'm doubly excited now!!!

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