i've been feeling very overwhelmed and underwhelmed lately. it may sound wonky, but if you think it through, i think you can feel both of those feelings at the same time. i can only explain it as feeling so overwhelmed that you just don't care enough to do anything about it above and beyond what you need to do to get by. therefore, i am underwhelmed. has anyone else felt this way?
there's a lot going on in my world and in my head and everything seems to happen so fast, as life does. most of what's going on involves a lot of change, all of which i believe is for the better, but that doesn't make it any less scary. change is very scary for me. i feel very comfortable with safe, risk averse decisions. but as i seem to be learning, making the safe, comfortable decision doesn't always get you where you want to be, or help you grow and develop into the person you want to be.
i will share more as i can, i'm sorry for being so secretive here, but i have to decide if i'm willing to take a risk on something that is not safe and comfortable so that i can have a chance at being happier with where i am in life.
the business quarter is ending, which means work is very busy. my first half marathon back in action is less than two weeks away and i've been so stressed out trying to get my workouts in. with my schedule being so crazy, i haven't been to strength training in weeks. and now i've found myself in a blister situation that i'm desperately trying to remedy before race day. are we having fun yet? :)
oh and not to mention, its football season! the enjoyment i get from college football is slightly overshadowed by how exhausted i am already going to the games each weekend. and i'm only two home games in! thank goodness for pumpkin spice lattes to keep me going...
i guess what i'm trying to show through all of this is that overwhelmed and underwhelmed is exactly how i feel. and because of that a lot of my passion projects, like blogging and writing and cooking, have taken a sad little side role in life.
but hey, it happens. the ebbs and flows of life as we know it. i'm just focused on moving forward because thats all you need to do to get through!