i never want to put the blogging community down because it can be such a wonderful, supportive group full of inspiration, motivation and good vibes all around.
but going through my twitter and bloglovin feed after four days of absence from it felt like trying to read for homework and realizing you've only read one sentence over and over again. my brain felt numb. all i saw was similar blog titles, product reviews, race recaps, "this is what i ate today" posts and giveaway after giveaway after giveaway... everything in my feed felt the same to me and this left me feeling very uninspired. where’s the fun in that?
don’t get me wrong. i post many of the things i listed above, but looking through this feed of vanilla (not hating on the vanilla lovers out there) got me thinking. what is considered original blog content these days? what does it take to be creative? unique? original? what goes above and beyond to inspire me, instead of leading me to click “mark as read” on first glance?
and i don’t know that i have the answers to any of those questions. so this leads me to wonder, maybe it’s not the entire blogging community that’s like this. maybe it’s just the little circle i follow? maybe i need to rethink the bloggers and blogs that i read? but even when i look at the entirety of #sweatpink and #runchat and #fitfluential hash tags, i see the same things.
and quite honestly, i’m over it.
i think this is the biggest challenge when it comes to blogging; once you get into the groove as a blogger, you enter yourself into a constant battle between wanting to earn the love of the blogging audience or posting what truly comes from your heart (even if its not popular content).
i want to be a writer. a published writer at that. and i’m realizing more and more that blogging is becoming less and less of a way to get me where i want to be. i don’t want to post the same cookie cutter posts and product reviews and giveaways. i don’t care if i have 0 followers or 40 million. i just want to be authentic to me. and i want the blogging community i’m involved in to lift me on rainbows, not leave me feeling vanilla and uninspired.
i’m not sure if anyone else has felt this way. i can’t imagine i’m the only one, but i’m going to sit on these feelings for awhile before i make any rash decisions (like deleting my entire follow list on bloglovin).