|this is a picture of my dog, for no other reason except |
i think she's really cute
so.... it's been a little quiet over here, hasn't it?
well, there's a reason for that and it's called the blogging bottleneck. this is when you have a ton of ideas for your blog flowing up the wazoo but something prevents you from actually getting them onto your blog and out into the world. the bottleneck, or what is preventing the blogging from happening, could be many things. my bottleneck is mostly a very busy, hectic and overwhelming schedule that has me exhausted, burnout and brain dead (not really, but it sure does feel that way sometimes).
for example, every week for the next month i am traveling for work, and that is only the travel that i have planned as of this morning. i have yet to schedule meetings etc for the month of september and frankly i'm dreading what my calendar may look like. sure, work travel can come with the occasional perk of getting bumped to first class and eating as many mini bags of m&m pretzels as my heart desires, but flying first class is not the step forward i'm looking for in my life. i'm looking for a well balanced, healthy lifestyle and traveling as much as i am isn't helping...
the other bottleneck that is leading to a lack of time is an accumulation of all the things going on in my life that is causing my anxiety disorder to flair up and take over. last weekend, i couldn't sleep for two nights in a row. friday night - no sleep. saturday night - no sleep. anyone who suffers from anxiety knows what this is like; you lie in bed, heart pounding, stomach churning, brain exhausted but you just can't sleep. its miserable and left me a very miserable person for the entire weekend. even after playing a full day of golf in an outing on saturday i still couldn't sleep saturday night!! so sunday came along and i was in and out of complete exhaustion mode being able to do nothing more than lay on the couch and watch wings on netflix (which isn't a bad way to spend your time, folks. wings is a great show).
and you know what else happens when i'm sleep deprived and exhausted? i become the food monster and all i can do is eat. and my favorite thing to eat when i haven't slept is carbs. lots and lots of carbs. keep 'em coming because i can't get enough of them! this led to another weekly weigh-in gain (up to 148.9 pounds this week), which totals about 5 pounds in the plus direction over the past two weeks. sure is wonderful, isn't it?
the total two-pow punch of no sleep and weight gain has led to a very cranky me and that cranky level is also another level of the bottleneck. call the bottleneck what you like (excuses, cop-outs, yadda yadda) but it certainly is blocking the flow of creativity and writing and blogging in my life. i'm hoping that bumping up the exercise level over the next few weeks will help me manage my stress better so that i can sleep and find the time i need to take care of myself during the few precious moments of downtime i may have.
is anybody else out there working through a blogging bottleneck? or what has gotten you past the bottleneck before? i'd love any suggestions for busting through mine, and fast! :)